Icky

We went to the doctor yesterday for Brett, who has been diagnosed with H1N1, poor boy. When we went to the doctor for me today we were disappointed to learn that the ultrasound tech wasn't there today. I must have goofed up the schedule because I was pretty sure that today was when we would find out boy or girl, but no such luck. We'll go back next week to find out, I hope. We heard a strong heartbeat, and the doc said that although I'm not gaining weight, the baby is growing just like it should. So that's good. (Also, I am huge of belly...)

The doctor scolded us for not getting flu shots and when I mentioned that I don't have quite the same symptoms as Brett, he called me illogical for thinking I wasn't going to get the flu too. Then prescribed Tamaflu, without actually examining me or asking what symptoms I do have. What if I have bronchitis instead? Should I be taking drugs if I don't have to?

I appreciate that I don't have any medical training. That I don't know anyone who has recently had a baby. But I really hate feeling patronized and it's happened more than once. I mean, yes, I'm sure I have some silly/ stupid questions. This is the first time I've had a baby after all. But I don't think that means I should be made to feel stupid. If I question why I should get a flu shot I don't think the answer should be, "you need to have one; you're pregnant." Sometimes I feel like I'm bothering the doctors. I just wish I was treated more routinely as if I have choices, as if it were up to me how to have my baby. Instead of just a passive baby factory. Am I just being sensitive? It makes me feel icky.